No Not I (from the movie ATL)

Pleasure turns to the pain
Lessons learned from the strain
Questions burned in my brain..
About whether love is humane
In its touch.
These thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream
In the tears of your deceit.
Fighting the current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos
Of our intertwined emotions.
Chaotic because the anchor
Of Error's arrow has been plucked
Rrom the vessel of my undying infatuation
Separation not as simple as the distance between us
My mind no longer possessed by demons
That have been The overseers of my enslavement to your
Lies the seeds of these lies rooted so deeply
They have cracked the foundation of what we once shared
Allowing the faith in us i had sealed inside
To gush out like a river
Ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts
As violently and as brutally as if it were a
Child being taken from its mothers arms
I'm left surrounded in darkness
But i refuse to be swallowed by it
My loneliness like the night air
Invisible to the eye
Obvious to the touch
It is cold comfortableness
Yet if i could do it all over again
Id do it in the same skin I'm in
To lay down and let love die
Just stay down and let love lie?
No, no..not i
Id stay around and let love fly
Even though i have seen its darkest form deceit
Nothing else could taste this warm
Or feel this sweet...